We have to go to work, we have to go to sleep (I'm not as young as I used to be, when I could work all night)... we have to take care of the house and the children, put food on the table, and pay the bills. Which means we drop the "frivolous" things, the "niceties" of life...
I drop the following:
I stop going to Yoga.
I stop going to the gym.
I stop brushing my hair... and forget which day I last showered.
I don't even attempt to put on make up or dress in anything other than jeans and t-shirts.
I don't make balanced and nutritious lunches... rather taking any part of a leftover meal or microwave a mac n cheese found in my desk drawer.
I stop making lists, and writing things down in the calendar.
The other thing I do, is stop journaling... part of that making lists and writing things down in the calendar... I stop doing any of it. I stop communicating. I have a hard time organizing thoughts, as I am the types of anxious that is slightly obsessive compulsive and have to go back to the house in the mornings, because I have forgotten something... my lunch, my phone, or a tool for work.... Lists truly help ease my mind and help me focus.
At night I write down everything I can think of for the next day, and pack my bag, pack all the lunches, then remember what I forgot a few times, write them down and then eventually sit down to relax... The alternative to this, is me waking up 3-4 times a night because I keep remembering what else I need to to in the morning, or whatever I may have forgotten to do in the day. It can drive someone mad...
September started out simply, with a nice big vacation to Jackson, Wyoming to see my sister in law get married to her best friend. We saw Yellowstone National Park and loved every minute. Taking 10 days away was great, I was able to take time and layout the month in a way I felt I could manage. I had inspiration from the mountains around me and how time seemed to slow down.
I was lucky to have the time while in Jackson to layout the month, in the valley of a mountain covered in snow, with a moose outside the sliding door. I found that writing a weekly list didn't seem relevant, so I make a sketch of all of the things I was in charge of while on vacation. I do think this layout worked out pretty well. It made me feel good which is all that matters. I was in charge of creating chalkboard signs for my sister in laws reception. Along with keeping track of the places we visited.
However, upon the return to Connecticut I stopped my weekly layouts as all of my evening time was taken up by a side theater project. Notes written on post its, and scrap pieces of paper. I found myself covered in paint and staying up till 2 am. This side project lasted up through October.